I went through a self-destruct period the past few days. I think I could have potentially lost my job because of it, if I didn't change the way I was looking at things. I felt like just giving up. I sort of feel better today, but still wonder where it keeps coming from. I don't know if it is psychosomatic or coming from the outside. I'm going into work today despite the fact that I tried to call out yesterday for today. I hope I'm okay at work. I still deal with a lot of paranoia and negativity from within. I go for my second injection next week, so maybe things will get better. I hope anyway.