New Way of Looking At Things

I need to find a new way of looking at things.  I know that I am going to be stuck with my mother for the rest of her life because of her physical pain now.  I don't know how she expects to be able to be a cashier if she can't stand over a sink and...

Why?

Why do strange people that I don't know have to make comments to hurt me?  What the hell did I do to deserve this shit?  I got called a "lying bitch" by some guy I don't even know yesterday.  If people can't be nice, I wish they'd just leave me the...

Positive Thinking and Goals

Well, though I was hiding from my family because of my mother's paranoia that she'll be frowned upon for my way of being, I am starting to open up and get accepted.  This is a wonderful thing, I believe.     I got an appointment now to find out...

My Mom is a Bitch

I just wake up and she expects me to go with her to take care of her tire.  She gets bitchy because I didn't want to go.  If something happened to the car, not only would she be in a wreck, but so would I.  What good would that do?  I'm so sick of her...

Attempting to Build

I'm attempting to build my self-esteem.  Nevermind what some others think of me because they have never survived so much as I have.  Only one percent of the world population has this illness.  I'm determined not to allow it to define me anymore...

Determination

I am so determined to make it in this world now.  Fuck feeling sorry for myself.  Yeah, I have problems, but things are getting better than they have been.  I almost gave up on school, but then some more stupid men drove by laughing at me.  I'm sick...

Why the Sabotage?

Someone is messing with my school settings now.  I wish I knew who it was that was trying to sabotage me.  I wouldn't be surprised if it had to do with Ed judging by past evidence.  As if his beating on me wasn't enough when we were growing up?  I...