Good Morning!!!!!!

I just thought I would stop by and say something nice.  Good morning.  I hope you have a great day.

Jerk

Though I keep trying to block the fact out, I realize that my father was spying on me over the internet.  Whoever was bugging the fuck out of me while I lived with him must be associated with him.  What hurts me so bad is that all of it upset me...

Changing and Happy About It

I feel as though I have been having more self-control.  Though I fell last week, I'm finally sick of doing it.  I asked my boss for more hours and she said that she'd been willing to do it before but I asked for less.  I was going to try and keep my...

Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally bought some Creatine powder.  I guess I needed it, too, because I feel pretty damn good right now.  I recently downed a serving and am totally alert.  I don't know whether it is because I'm getting closer to coming out of a depressive state...

Gonna Come Out of It

I only thought of suicide for a short time yesterday after my boss got on my case.  She ended up with a fun attitude after her initial comments though.  I need to figure out what is making me ultra-sensitive to shit that shouldn't even affect me.  I...

Gotta Strive

There are too many depending on my survival to give up and die no matter what I'm feeling.  I realize that the ones who want me to feel bad are the ones who feel bad themselves.  When the lies of depression hit my head and I feel like no one cares, I...

Just Updating

I was depressed as hell for three days, but now I feel sort of functional.  I felt great this morning around 4 am.  I took two naps since then though.  I'm working to get myself out of the funk I was in.  I took off my witchcraft pendants too.  They...

Mortified

I'm completely mortified inside.  My father's computer seemed to somehow have my passwords on it even though I have changed them a few times in three years.  Then I caught the man jerking off.  Sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I didn't want to see that shit.  I...