Being Taken Advantage Of

Well, I think I have been taken advantage of by my neighbor for the last time.  I'm ready to stop speaking to her.  I work for a living now.  I don't just collect disability.  She acts like her mom and step dad take advantage of her, yet she had some...

It Was Fun While It Lasted

I have decided that I don't like my job anymore, and I have only worked 5 days.  They don't bother to answer the phone during business hours, so if someone has an emergency and has to call out, they can't.  If a customer has a question, their are shit...

Something

I've been praying for whoever God is to heal my mind and stop me from being suicidal.  As a result, I feel better.  I wonder if God is causing this or just the fact that I prayed for myself.  I had started praying for myself off and on a few months...

Just Thoughts About My Life

Though my back seems to hurt a bit while I'm working, I enjoy my new job.  I had stopped having the pain in the back near my neck a long time ago, but it started up again.  It moves too, like some sort of entity is trying to attach itself to me...

Define Happy

I know that I am not happy.  I got stuck on another math assignment and started abusing the shit out of myself as a result.  I feel like I'm not going to make it in this world.  Every time I try to get ahead, there's a fucking block.  I was calling...

Feeling Outstanding

Though I am failing Business Math, I feel outstanding because I have a job now.  I suffer with back and leg pain, but view these pains as good ones.  Ever since I got hired last week, I feel so much better.  I feel useful again.  The best part is the...

This Sucks

I am taking a Business Math class right now.  Unfortunately, even with tutoring, I'm stuck on Algebra.  I think I'm going to fail the class because of the fact.  I'm falling behind and there's nothing I can do about it.  I feel stupid because I can't...

Sharing

I think that they may still be mad at me for feeding some of the local strays.  I'm sorry, but I have gotten attached to these little buggers and worry about them.  I don't want them to starve to death.  Maybe some people are cold towards animals, but...

Horrible Feelings

I had some horrible feelings yesterday.  I slept most of the day because I was so down in the dumps and pissed off.  It sucked the energy right out of me.  I hope I can stay awake today and feel better.  I don't want the kind of feelings that I was...

Why Did I Care?

Last week my mother apologized to me and talked all sorts of shit about taking antidepressants.  Today she is being petty like a regressed child and having a fucking attitude with me because she claims I had one with her yesterday.  All I did was...