Two Crushes Now

I have decided that I like two rockstars.  Sully ain't the only one anymore.  The second crush is more the type of guy I usually look at.  I like 'em husky.  If I would have known about Youtube and the band's music sooner, I think I would have gone...

Better Day

I had a better day yesterday than I had the day before.  Of course, sleeping most of the day until 3pm seemed to help my brain work some shit out.  I didn't sleep but about two and a half hours this morning, but I'm okay.  I guess I have to express...

Having a Hard Time

I don't think I'm going to be okay working.  Too much weird shit is going on.  I can't describe it, but it tears me down every time.  Now I know why I hated people for so long.  Those feelings are starting to come back.  I have to talk to Social...

I'm Better Now

So not used to the strength of it, but I'm over it now.  I think I can look at him without going haywire.  I hate when guys affect me.

Gotta Deal With This

I feel very vulnerable and virtually helpless right now because I got so turned on yesterday.  I'm still freaking turned on whenever I see this guy's face in my head.  Not good.  Obviously, I'm NOT a fucking lesbian.  This guy is totally the type of...

Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I Don't Believe It!

I am happy right now, but I'm not.  Today I have felt the most unbridled lust that I have felt since I was a virgin.  Do you have any idea how hard it is to shut that shit off?  It scares me.  Of course it feels good, but I am so afraid of it.  I'm...

Tomorrow's Goals

I plan on doing a walk-in tomorrow to see if I can get my medicine adjusted again.  I have to start taking my life seriously instead of for granted.  There has been way too much wacky shit going on since I changed from the injection back to pills....

Oi

Today was a rough day.  I am so not used to full time hours.  I had them two days in a row.  I'm officially beat  I have a great deal of confusion going on within myself, not just work right now.  Why are radio stations calling me from out of state...

We'll See

I overheard my boss talking about terminating people.  She kept mentioning my name, but I didn't get upset.  I know I am doing the best that I can.  She also told me that I had to come into work today for a second 8 1/2 hour shift.  Maybe she had to...

Feeling Serious Relief

I am so glad that I am done with school.  I actually went to the mall for the first time in quite a while. I love clearance racks.  I got a few shirts at Penney's for an awesome price.  I also got a new pillow and one of the type of men's shirts that...

Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am done with school.  I finished my last assignment Tuesday night.  My boss seems to be taking advantage of that fact by calling me in.  Oh well, it's more money.  I got an interview offer from a manager that is going to be running this new...

I Don't...........

I don't own any of the videos that I posted either.  I just love this music.  Now I think I have things figured out.  I had to learn this video thing on my own.  All of the musicians own their own videos.  I am just sharing.

Duh

I went to the mailbox this morning because I was too tired to after work last night.  There were two guys at the mailboxes this morning.  I said good morning to the both of them, and all of the sudden, these crazy mother fuckers were talking that they...

Reality Focus

I have been through a lot of crazy shit.  I am still here though.  Things are starting to calm down again too.  I'm almost done with school.  Thank God!  I really don't want to deal with this shit anymore.  I may end up being the most highly educated...

Poor Babies

I wish there was more that I could do for these cats that I feed.  A few of them are sick and one of my original three doesn't want to eat tonight or do anything.  I keep praying for them to be safe and to heal, but the healing factor isn't being...

Decent Day

I ordered some work out clothing online yesterday.  I also bought some today at work.  After I graduate, it's going to be time to get myself doing something to improve my attitude towards myself. Yes, I have gone through a great deal of struggle over...