Dickhead

Some fucking moron in a silver truck sped through here like a maniac and did a 180 in front of our trailer and not only almost hit my mother's parked car but almost the cars across the street that were parked.  If I had a gun, I might have shot...

Life Blows Chunks Sometimes

I'm going to have to do something here.  I will be very surprised if I do keep my job after yeterday.  Then again, I wasn't the only one who fucked up.  Regardless of how others acted yesterday, I don't like the way that I acted.  It was as if I...

Good Day

I slept a lot today, but got one of my homework assignments knocked out tonight.  I also got the research done for the one late assignment that I have yet to do.  I will get it knocked out tomorrow.  I'm so happy that work is not calling me in on my...

Relaxation

After expressing myself online, it seems that the cars that would stop and stare have quit doing so.  As I said either here or on Facebook, I am my own person.  I don't want to be attached to anyone because I'm sick of attracting assholes.  I also...

Ain't Falling For It Again

I can tell that someone or something is trying very hard to suck me out of reality in similar ways to what happened in 1997.  I am not falling for the tricks again.  I made an ass of myself falling for it back then.  I've come too far to allow that to...

Nosie Butt Lickers

I'm fed up.  I am sick of nosie people stopping near my house trying to find out what I'm doing.  I don't know these people and they don't know me.  I am none of their business.  If I am doing something that they don't like, that is just too bad.  No...

Gonna Make It

It feels good to know that the negativity that I was recieving at work the other night has gone away.  I do miss the cat that disappeared though.  Wherever he is, I hope he's still alive.  Other than the cat disappearing, things are going okay.  Work...

Recovering

I tried another two nights on the second dose of antipsychotic medication.  I could hardly sleep at night.  My body was just jerking away.  It felt like something was violating my aura.  That's the only way I can describe it.  This sucks because even...

Gotta Be Psychotic Symptoms

People have been behaving strangely, but some things have to be psychotic symptoms.  I'm glad that doctor kept my prescriptions at the level they were at before I quit the job I had several months back.  I apologized to a few people at work today,...

Again?

I am sick and tired of people trying to silence and ruin me.  If the psychic vampires of the trailer park are so hell bent on dragging me down when I am just about to be successful, I'm going to have to retaliate.  Of course people start prying into...

Calming Down

I have to make myself totally understand that there are a lot of fucked up people in this world that need help and never get it.  If I continue to let these people drag me down, of course none of the treatment I have recieved over the years will help....

Assholes

Ya know, I work my ass off when I work.  I certainly don't appreciate how I was treated last night.  I am sick and tired of people who don't know how to cope with their own fucking stress triggering suicidal thoughts within me.  I am very hurt and...

Enlightenment

I have been trying so fucking hard to keep going with this job.  I am fed up with management not knowing how to manage and be attentive of their employees' emotional needs.  I'm fucking disabled.  I can't help it.  I do the best I can and still I get...

I Feel Better Now

Apparently, the guy who thought it was so funny to egg the house and tear down the fence has a cousin that's on my Facebook page.  She got mad at me, but oh well.  I guess she didn't like the comment that the guy looks like a meth head.  I hope she...

We Can't Please Everyone

That's just fact.  I can't believe some guys from my hometown still think it is funny that they used to break our fence and egg the damn house.  God, I hate douchebags.

Now I Know I'm Not Crazy, At Least Not By Choice

I keep learning more and more about how things I didn't previously know affected my psyche.  Certain things that hit my mind that seemed ridiculously outlandish are now revealed to me.  I'm kinda pissed off at the moment and tempted to go out and get...

What an Improvement

I started to do my assignments this evening but got all panicky and upset.  I literally started beating myself over the head again.  Then, even though I didn't think I could do it, I pressed on.  I got my junk finished and feel a hell of a lot better....

Refreshed

I was up late last night, so I went back to bed twice today.  I woke up at 5 this evening and now I feel refreshed.  After dinner I have to finish my assignments for school.  Then, for the next two days I can concentrate on cleaning the hell outta my...

Good Morning

Ah, there is no heat in my room this morning and it's 29 degrees.  Two of the cats came in the house this morning too.  The space heaters are running in the living room, so I guess they needed a break from the cold.  I feel sorry for all of my sweet...

Oddly Enough

I wonder if the people that have been behaving oddly around me are possessed or influenced by something other than themselves.  I'm glad I bought another Bible.  Those who judge me and think I've got shit all wrong need to learn a lesson, especially...

Wow!!!!!!!!

I didn't get called into work today.  I don't believe it.  Maybe she's just making sure I am stable or something.  I'm probably going to turn my phone off tomorrow because I need to concentrate on my homework.  If she doesn't call tomorrow, I'll be...