Creepies

Well, the creepy crawlies are at it again, but hopefully, tomorrow we will have that problem resolved.  I have to hang on long enough for the medicine to take effect.  It might make me drowsy enough that I can fall asleep, right away.  I know the...

Latest Update

I ended up just getting my injection today.  I'm going to do the walk in thing tomorrow.  I was too tired to sit there for a long period of time.  I'm determined to get rid of these tactile hallucinations.  I told the injection nurse about the past...

Well

I'm going to see about getting fit in for a psych doc visit tomorrow while I'm waiting for my injection.  Hopefully, it helps.  I apparently insult innocent people without meaning to.  I can already tell it's going to be a lonely road ahead in this...

Ok

I think I offended people already.  There's not much that I can do about that.  I was being honest about how I was feeling at the time.  That's what I need to do.  If people don't want to comment on my blog, oh well.  I'll get over it. 

Tidbits

I'm listening to the lead singer of Godsmack's solo album right now.  It's pretty.  As I said, I'm going to make myself come back.  I haven't listened to Godsmack in a few weeks, but I'm listening to his solo.   I notice no one has made any...

Found a Good Price

Walmart had a good price for the punching bag, stand, and the gloves for $134.00.  I may invest in that in the future.

What Will Life Hold?

Once I get rid of the tactile hallucinations, I wonder what life will hold?  I wonder if I'll be strong enough to face life without having stupid thoughts of suicide.  I don't want to die.  I primarily only get the thoughts of suicide from being kept...

Really Don't Want to See This

I really don't want to see all of the suffering in the world that's going on.  I'd love to believe that one day this world will get better, but I'm really starting to wonder about passages that I've read in the Bible.  How do so many see forgiveness...

Struggling But Will Be Okay

I'm up with the tactile hallucinations again.  I have to stop cussing God out over them.  Whoever God is, it's not his or her fault.  I get sounding so hateful and that's not how I want to be.  I get to feeling like God hates me and it's just not...

Pretty Good Day

I haven't done a whole lot today, but it's been a good day none the less.  I'm enjoying my time to myself.  Being that I have so much time and nothing to complain about, I might try and draw something.  I haven't done it in a while, so I don't know...

I'm Glad

I'm glad that I go to school online instead of in a physical school where I can get shot at.

It's Really Sad

The stuff I'm hearing about the Oregon shootings is really sad.  What would cause someone to go off the deep end like that without any warning signs to prevent it?  I could have easily gone off the deep end and shot people up, but I don't own a gun. ...

Anyway

Despite a rough night, today ended up being a fairly good day.  I'm going to have the house to myself this weekend.  That's something to look forward to, though I'll probably be bored.

I Don't Understand

Why do people stop and stare at us in their cars?  They stop and stare at me and the neighbor I talk to the most.  It's harassment.  They treat us like freaks and I'm sick of it.  I don't smoke weed anymore and she never did.  I wonder if that's the...

Ha Ha

I guess someone doesn't like me hiding because they are obviously in my computer trying to make me paranoid as hell.  It's not going to work this time though.  I am protecting myself so if the man doesn't like it, tough noogies.  He can stop yelling...

I Watched and Listened

I watched some youtube a few minutes ago.  I was watching and listening to Seether.  It reminds me that the negative that I hear in the bands that I like is because of experiences that they've probably had.  Besides, "Rise Above This" is a positive...

Prank Calls

We keep getting prank silent phone calls from someone.  I know who I suspect, but I'm not sure.  I told them today that they have obsession issues like I used to have when I was younger.  I think it's ridiculous now.  I retired several years ago from...

Can't Let Myself Go

I have to find a way to start enjoying life a little more.  I lost interest in art, which is supposed to be therapuetic.  I lost interest in a lot of my music because it is so negative.  The two things that I used to enjoy, I just can't seem to...

Sad Thing

It's a sad thing when you can't trust anyone to be a real friend in your life.  It's also sad when no one understands you and thinks symptoms of a mental illness that you have are a joke.  It's bad when you have to hide in order to protect yourself. ...